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Jul. 17th, 2007

I've been feeling a bit like Hamlet lately.  No, I don't wish to murder my uncle but I've been waiting and waiting for the right times to act and I keep letting them pass.  It's the little things that I'm letting pass by, especially on communication.  Life and this internship have taught me that I need to work on my communication skills and assertiveness.

I believe I'm a fairly confident person who falls back into old habits once in awhile, but I have a real problem letting myself be heard and it's going to bite me in the butt later on.  I feltl it especially when I went to visit the lab I'll be working in next semester at UMBI.  I wasn't sure if it was a comment or a point she was making, but one of my mentors mentioned that I shouldn't be all demure and quiet at the lab, that I need to speak up and make it known what I want to research.  I have some ideas but I still need to develop my ideas by reading more literature on the halophiles.

Personally, I keep making promises to myself to get in touch and stay in touch with other people.  And it's been gnawing at me because I can't seem to follow through.  I hope once this internship clears up, I can finally get to my personal life.
Something strange sort of happened a few weeks ago.  An old high school classmate of mine, well two years older than me, contacted me on MySpace from Afghanistan (He;s in the Army).  It was very random and I've been trying to keep up messaging with him, but it's hard since I'm hardly ever on MySpace.  It's important for me to keep in touch with him, becuase I think I believe if I keep in touch with him, then it'll make my cousin come home safely from Iraq.

Other than the above, things have been alright.  I'm looking forward to a good rest after Wednesday's over.  To quote the wise words of Fergie: 
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity


But my mind's been up and down lately.  I think it's the anxiety that I'll be in a completely different element next semester, Brandon's going away for three months and I'll miss him dearly, and that I won't be seeing my friends as much as I'd like, college friends and outside of school friends.  I tend to fret about the things that are eons away and have let that tendency ruin the time I should've used to enjoy myself.  I cant' let that happen this time.  I have too much to look forward to in the next few weeks and a lot to learn from next semester and I can't let myself forget that and scare myself into thinking otherwise.

Looking forward to hanging out with Jess.  I haven't seen her in quite a bit.  Last time I saw her, she gave me an Origami kit to help me "become more Asian"...It's funny, don't worry.
Also looking forward to seeing Sarita...I hope (sorry for the communication fiasco!  I owe you a long letter!)
Also looking foward to hanging out with my garden, as geeky as that sounds!  My daisies are in full, beautiful bloom and am looking forward  to enjoying them.

Last but not least: HARRY POTTER!!!!!!
Saw Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix last Saturday afternoon with Louise and Danielle.  I loved it!  I found myself gripping my seat every now and then.  I also informed my dad that at 6:00 am on Saturday morning, we'll, or at least I will, be at Wegman's buying a copy of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows...no I didn't pre-order one!  If that fails, there's always Sam's Club.  I will re-emerge into sunlight for work on Sunday morning  :)

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demons_dont_cry
Jul. 19th, 2007 05:36 am (UTC)
Hiya dear! Good to hear a little bit of whats going on in your life. I wish we talked like we used to :(
But I understand things are busy and soon enough, I will be very busy too.
However, I would like to take this comment and invite you to the Os game next Friday! Its against the Yankees! I really hope you can make it... If not, its okay :) Jus thought Id send an invite your way!
btw- whos this former TC student you speak of across seas?
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